Kayla Mueller : The Daughter that Every Mother Hopes She is Raising

Kayla Mueller had been held hostage by the Islamic State since 2013.  She was kidnapped while leaving a Doctor’s Without Borders hospital in Aleppo, Syria on August 4th – just 10 days shy of her 25th birthday.  She was working with refugees on the Turkey-Syria border at the time of her capture but she had also been making trips into Syria to help reconnect family members separated by the fighting.  It was one of these trips that took her to Aleppo where she was kidnapped.

Kayla Mueller with her mother, Marsha Mueller.

Kayla Mueller with her mother, Marsha Mueller.

Although rumors of their daughter’s death had been circulating for several days prior, the family was still holding out hope.  However, upon receiving confirmation of their daughter’s death yesterday, the Mueller family released the heart-wrenching letter that Kayla had written to them while in captivity. The extraordinary message she struggles to write to her parents  and family exemplifies her strength, bravery, compassion, and love for her family.

“Everyone, if you are receiving this letter it means I am still detained but my cell mates (starting from 11/2/2014) have been released. I have asked them to contact you +send you this letter.

It’s hard to know what to say. Please know that I am in a safe location, completely unharmed + healthy (put on weight in fact); I have been treated w/ the utmost respect + kindness.

I wanted to write you all a well thought out letter (but I didn’t know if my cell mates would be leaving in the coming days or the coming months restricting my time but primarily) I could only but write the letter a paragraph at a time, just the thought of you all sends me into a fit of tears.

If you could say I have “suffered” at all throughout this whole experience it is only in knowing how much suffering I have put you all through; I will never ask you to forgive me as I do not deserve forgiveness. I remember mom always telling me that all in all in the end the only one you really have is God.

I have come to a place in experience where, in every sense of the word, I have surrendered myself to our creator b/c literally there was no else…. + by God + by your prayers I have felt tenderly cradled in freefall. I have been shown in darkness, light + have learned that even in prison, one can be free. I am grateful.

I have come to see that there is good in every situation, sometimes we just have to look for it. I pray each each day that if nothing else, you have felt a certain closeness + surrender to God as well + have formed a bond of love + support amongst one another…

I miss you all as if it has been a decade of forced separation. I have had many a long hour to think, to think of all the things I will do w/ Lex, our first family camping trip, the first meeting @ the airport.

I have had many hours to think how only in your absence have I finally @ 25 years old come to realize your place in my life. The gift that is each one of you + the person I could + could not be if you were not a part of my life, my family, my support.

I DO NOT want the negotiations for my release to be your duty, if there is any other option take it, even if it takes more time. This should never have become your burden.

I have asked these women to support you; please seek their advice. If you have not done so already, [REDACTED] can contact [REDACTED] who may have a certain level of experience with these people.

None of us could have known it would be this long but know I am also fighting from my side in the ways I am able + I have a lot of fight left inside of me. I am not breaking down + I will not give in no matter how long it takes.

I wrote a song some months ago that says “The part of me that pains the most also gets me out of bed, w/out your hope there would be nothing left…” aka ­ the thought of your pain is the source of my own, simultaneously the hope of our reunion is the source of my strength.

Please be patient, give your pain to God. I know you would want me to remain strong. That is exactly what I am doing. Do not fear for me, continue to pray as will I + by God’s will we will be together soon.

All my everything,

Kayla”

In their statement, Kayla’s parents, Carl and Marsha Mueller, said “Our hearts are breaking for our only daughter, but we will continue on in peace, dignity, and love for her. She lived with purpose, and we will work every day to honor her legacy.”

InspiredByMyMom.com is deeply saddened by the death of this formidable young woman and joins others around the world in sending their condolences to the entire Mueller family.

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4 Responses to Kayla Mueller : The Daughter that Every Mother Hopes She is Raising

  1. J says:

    What an extraordinary person she was…..To live with such purpose….

    Like

  2. Lynda says:

    This is a very inspiring, and very sad letter. Thank you for sharing it.

    Like

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